if you hear someone say: "she heard enough and was hurt, she walked away tears ran down her face!". that's me. today is a bad day. idk who's people who want to hear my problem, so I write in here. I had a problem and I want to make it go away from my mind.
I'm not arguing, I'm quiet, and I was thinking deeply. even though it seemed like I did, I don't have a best friend. but I just have a close friend. not "best". yeah. best friend will never blame one another, not rude, not let their friend feel alone, can make their friend comfort.
so what the problem? I want to puke out everything I ate to your face btch!
I don't know what they think. I don't know if you're angry or whaaaatttt????? suddenly they leave me. they don't ask me anything, they're so annoying!. I'm so sad and I keep silent. I know silent isn't always good, there are times I need to speak out, so people will understand me better. but it was fixed by it's self.and now, I think we began to hide something one another, not care anymore, just think about yourself, not think about what I feel because your atitude. that's okay. so if nobody care about my feelings, why should I care about theirs?
if I could skip all the bad days of my life. god please help! :(
oh crap, I'm still dizzy.
In the other side, I want to tell about my heart's feel. ha!
it was weird at first because I never feel like this before. I like someone. Idk why I can falling in love with him, we're different religion, and I know we can't be together. so how we would can be? friends, be in love, or nothing? we'll never be in-between.
for whatever reason, I can't stop think of you, even though I had all kinds of thoughts running through my head. everyday I thinking "don't you know how much I miss you Di? I just want to know how you are doing now." okay that's weird ._.
monday-friday. I love when you're hold my hand, hug me from behind, act stupid just to make me smile, stare at me face while I'm not looking, pinch my cheeks, hit me suddenly -_-
I like you as my friend. just it.
but I recognize, if you close with her I was jealous, that's all. thanks. bye.
