thanks, I know.

I lost too much weight after I got sick last week, now I feel my body is so weak :/ okay not too much, just 2 kg -_-. I have some story I want to share in here
first
I know, a really big secret. She's evil, bad girl. I don't know why, what's my fault? but I think She's hate me. I think She's jealous because I close with A. when stdytr, A's sick. I leave her because I promise to him that I want to take some photos with him, but she's not alone. there's someone else beside her. then A's fainting. when I go back, She's start to mad with me, She's said "why you leave A alone? she's sick!". but after that I apologize to A. I hear She's still talk about it until we back to jakarta. someday they ignore me, they keep silent to me. and it turns out She's behind this all. she said "why arifka so close with them (boys). we should give her a lesson. we just ignore her". then they do it to me. while deep inside I'm bleeding. I close with the boys because when sdytr I sitting in the rear of the bus. I start to talk with A, and She said "what are you doing with her!". now I know She's behavior. when I eating at somewhere, I talk about it with A. she's tell me what happen. then I know. thanks :)
honestly, I'm sick with everyone's around me, with their big fake smile and stupid lies. I'm sick and tired of begging you to act a certain way. fuck you with your selfish ways. and I'm annoyed by your actions but because I'm sick and I don't wanna quarrel with you, I act like I'm okay with it. you will never know how much you hurt me.
second
today's really fun. I love drama, we have the best class ever :)
third
I too shy! haha ken still remember that! when we playing together. we were kissing. oh god! he talk to me this evening. the he said "when we playing together, in the refrigerator box, we were kissing haha, that's cool but disgusting". that's really embarrassing moment.

I make the first story deliberately vague.

XI IPA 1

abyan, windy, adhika, adisti, agam, ajeng, almer, anantyo, anastasia, andi
anggun, annisa, annissa, arief, arif, arini, army, arum, avishena, ayang
ayutria, camelia, cindy, clara, dahlia, dessy, dimas, dinah, dwi, enggar
florensia, gede adhi, ifsan, irene, jeinne, nikko, niluh, rahmad, rayyan, safra
edited by me ;)

Indonesia's wildest, hell-raising chef

He's Junior Rorimpandey a.ka Juna Rorimpandey

Indonesian chef Juna Rorimpandey, 35, describes himself as "the black crayon in the box."
“But you can’t help noticing the black crayon!” he says, laughing.

The heavily tattooed, Harley-riding executive chef at trendy new lounge Jackrabbit has been turning heads with his clever dishes. His Monte Cristo sandwich with homemade jam or the spinach pappardelle with a kick of chili are stunning.

But, as we discovered, it's his rebellious past that marks him out from the crowd.

CNNGo: How fast have you gone on your Harley?

Juna Rorimpandey: Maybe 110 miles per hour. I don’t really pay attention.

I started riding Harleys back in 1992, when I was 17 years old. I was quite the rebel. We used to have this group, Bad Bones, and I was one of the founders. We were pretty scary, we rode fast, we didn’t care where we went.

I’m one of those guys who likes an adrenaline rush. I do a lot of stupid, silly adventures, and riding bikes is one of them.

CNNGo: When did you last break the law?

Juna Rorimpandey: A few months ago I bribed the cops for some stupid traffic violation.

The last time I got caught, though, was in the United States at the end of 2006. A street fight. It was like the show “Cops,” when you try to take off and cops are coming from all directions, and they throw guns on you.

It was an everybody on the ground kind of deal, and we were all handcuffed in the middle of the street.

CNNGo: What was it about?

Juna Rorimpandey: My friend was in a car accident and the guys he rear-ended beat him up, so he called us and when we got there it was already a fight, so we just jumped in.

Unluckily, I had to be the one who pushed the envelope. I went to jail for two days, had a court trial, probation, community service because I got pinned the hardest. I pretty much demolished the other guy’s car, a BMW.

In the States I used to be a sushi master and customers would buy us drinks. The more we got tipsy the faster we would make sushi.

—Juna Rorimpandey, chef

CNNGo: What’s the closest you’ve ever come to death?

Juna Rorimpandey: Uhhhh, I’ve been kidnapped; tortured; almost got shot in the head; overdosed and woke up in the hospital still foaming from my mouth, needle still hanging in my vein while I was passed out.

You name it. I’ve lost count. There’s nothing cool about that. I had my crazy years.

CNNGo: What were you kidnapped for?

Juna Rorimpandey: I have a strong personality and I don’t bow down just because you’re the son of a general and you try to buy me. But that was before, now I’m wiser.

CNNGo: How drunk have you been at work?

Juna Rorimpandey: In the States I used to be a sushi master and customers would buy us drinks. The more we got tipsy the faster we would make sushi.

Actually, I enforce drinking at work on weekends. Every Friday or Saturday when the guys do a great job I make shots for everybody.

They call it the speed rail shot because I mix up everything on the [bar]. To me it’s nothing, but I have to challenge them with rock-paper-scissors just to get them to drink. It’s silly, but life is short.

CNNGo: You no longer do drugs or smoke, even though most of your friends do. Why?

Juna Rorimpandey: I’m always the different kid. I never followed the trend. People say it’s hard to quit smoking, but I think that’s a bunch of BS. To me it’s all in the mind.

I have a strong personality and I don’t bow down.

— Juna Rorimpandey, chef

CNNGo: What would you love to tell diners who complain about the food?

Juna Rorimpandey: I have no comment. I’m not an asshole about that kind of thing.

CNNGo:You love working with meat, so what do you think of vegetarians ?

Juna Rorimpandey: I don’t understand the talk behind it because I’m a cannibal; I eat everything.

Anything that God created, you can kill it and eat it, as long as you kill and eat it and don’t just kill it for fun. I’m not really religious but it does say in the Bible that you’re the master of all living things on this Earth, as long as you don’t abuse that.

CNNGo: Who would be your three fantasy dinner guests?

Juna Rorimpandey: Anthony Bourdain, just because he’s a rebel. And then probably two of my favorite chefs, Thomas Keller [from French Laundry] and Marco Pierre White. He made [Gordon Ramsey] cry. Now there’s a bad boy in the kitchen.

CNNGo: Have you ever made anybody cry?

Juna Rorimpandey: Yes. I made somebody here quit on the spot just because I slammed a wall that happened to be made of stainless steel. I don’t do that often. It was just a terrible lunch service.

CNNGo: One thing you will never put in a dish and why?

Juna Rorimpandey: I’ll use anything.

CNNGo: Your tattoos draw a lot of attention. What’s special about them?

Juna Rorimpandey: I had my back started when I was 15 in Bali; it was a homemade machine with a single sewing needle. It was really primitive.

This one [on my right shin] is three chefs, a French executive chef, an American burger flipper and a Japanese sushi master, so it kind of resembles me, all the three combined.

Read more: Juna Rorimpandey : Indonesia's wildest, hell-raising chef

his twitter :

some words mean everything

that's all not mine. but it's pretty good and I want post in here :)

HEY YOU!

"I'm not a perfect girl. my hair doesn't always stay in place and I spill things a lot. I'm pretty clumsy and sometimes I have broken heart. my friends and I sometimes fight and maybe some days nothing goes right. but when I think about it and take a step back I remember how amazing life truly is and that maybe. just maybe. I like being unperfect"

yes, you. stop being unhappy with yourself, you are perfect. stop wishing you looked like someone else or wishing people liked you as much as they like someone else. stop trying to get attention from those who hurt you. stop hating your body, your face, your personality. love them. without those things you wouldn't be you. and why would you want to be someone else? be confident with who you are. smile. it'll draw people in. if anyone hates on you because you are happy with yourself then you stick your middle finger in the air and say screw it. my happiness will not depend on others anymore. I'm happy because I love who I am. I love my flaws. I love my imperfections. they make me me and 'me' is pretty amazing.

WOMAN'S PRAY

ya Allah, I pray for a man that will be a part of my life. a man that really loves You more than everything. a man that lives not for himself but for You. he must know for whom and what he lives, so his life isn't useless. someone that has a wise heart not only a smart brain. a man that not only adores me, but can warn me when I'm wrong. a man that can be my best friend. a man that makes me feel like a woman when I'm beside him. I don't ask for a pefect man but I ask for an imperfect man. a man that needs my support, my love, my prayer for his life. give my Your hands so I always be able to pray for him. give my Your eyes, so I can see good things in him and not see the bad one. give me Your mouth that is filled with Your words of wisdom so I can support him. and I want that finally both of us can say "how great you are" amin.

YOU

I love you. I want to sleep with you. I don't mean have sex. I mean sleep. together. under the blankets, in my bed. with my hand on your chest. and your arms around me. with the window cracked. so it's chilly and we have to cuddle closer. no talking. just sleepy, blissfully happy. silence.

masked ball

looks from my looklet 3
looks pretty right? haha. with Nicelena Earrings, Bvlgari Necklace, pull and bear Necklace, Litmarck Necklace, stine goya Necklace and Lotta Djossou Necklace. looks beauty with Pom Pom Parlour Glasses, Ann Christine Dress, Jenny Winding Sweater and Manish Arora Shoes. more complete with Wolford Tights and Van Deurs Bag. she's ready go to the party!

lalala

"when she stares at you, she's wondering why she loves you so much"

yeah. I always do it when I'm with him -_- I never tell this feeling to anyone, except Dita, she's my bbm and twitter's friend. I tell her about my feelin' because she's don't know who is Di hehe. somethings are best unspoken, so don't ask me why. It's just a feeling. I don't know what are going to happens ahead. someone tell me 'if you're not being crazy about someone, it's not love'. now I being crazy about you. so? am I feel in love with you? damn! I won't because I know we can't be together. 'it's hurt when you both were falling in love, but you can't be together'. and that's true. when I near you, I don't know what to do and I just all I know is I wanna stay there, just with you. I just wanna stay right there with you as long as possibly I can.

I've just recovered from my illness. honestly I hate being sick because I hate how the medicine I take makes me just wanna sleep all the time. I know I hate it this, but if I don't take this medicine it's only gonna get worse. but I feel fine, right now :)
at tuesday I go to sevel kemang with gendra. then we go to pim just for lunch. I see Stitch's doll, that's look so cuteee. I want it, but it's to expensive for me, Rp.600.000,- whatthehell. then we go to margo city depok, just sitting at j.co. I buy jcool. gendra buy jcool and coffee.

BAD DAY AGAIN!

today is soooooo bad!
today is first day of period I 'M'. my tummy has so sick and my leg feels stiff. and also my head get sore, I feel fever. when I get home, I laying on my bed. I'm crying because it's so painful. after that I eating then I taking medicine and sleep. I wake up at 22.30, I'm listening radio. I writing on twitter "Scary story at 99.00 fm, go turn on your radio now! you can hear some great story that will make you scared!". but I'm not scared yet haha
I feel better after sleep. at 23.30 I turn on my computer. I working for colloid and math, I starving and feels sleepy. after I finish all of it, I'm gonna drawing for english assignment, and learning katakana and hiragana word, that's for japan practice exam.
at school I feels so dizzy. my body feels weak and limp and I can't think clearly. I just thinking "I wanna get home and sleep!" I cried inside. like usually they really annoying. I hate 'em. when art practice exam, yoga sitting beside me and he bite my hand! and there's still scars -.-
the time is 03.00 now! I must working hard for today!
good luck and get well soon for me ;)

notes

Im homeyyyyyyy!! so tired. fiuh~
thanks for the party flo! :D
I'm happy. I meet him and tadaaaaaaa haha. he's so handsome and cool just with simple clothes. honestly I'm envy with the others. they are so cute, pretty, sexy, with the dress and heels. me? just wearing jeans, tshirt with jacket, shoes, and veil. but I'm proud wearing that. I still can keep my 'aurat' :)
hey I always dreaming about you almost everyday, and Idk why. I think because I meet you at school monday-friday, or I miss your jokes especially when you tease me?
for you girl, I really happy. I'm just pretending and I'm not going to take care of you. sorry. got it? am I cruel? I think not.
I hate when I get really sleepy but I can't sleep, or I really wanted to sleep but I'm not sleepy at all. and it happens all the time. great. okay I'll try to sleep now. because I have practice exam for tommorow and I must go to school. and I'll meet him again! haha

I'm ☹

lonely, yes I am.
if you hear someone say: "she heard enough and was hurt, she walked away tears ran down her face!". that's me. today is a bad day. idk who's people who want to hear my problem, so I write in here. I had a problem and I want to make it go away from my mind.
I'm not arguing, I'm quiet, and I was thinking deeply. even though it seemed like I did, I don't have a best friend. but I just have a close friend. not "best". yeah. best friend will never blame one another, not rude, not let their friend feel alone, can make their friend comfort.

so what the problem? I want to puke out everything I ate to your face btch!

I don't know what they think. I don't know if you're angry or whaaaatttt????? suddenly they leave me. they don't ask me anything, they're so annoying!. I'm so sad and I keep silent. I know silent isn't always good, there are times I need to speak out, so people will understand me better. but it was fixed by it's self.
and now, I think we began to hide something one another, not care anymore, just think about yourself, not think about what I feel because your atitude. that's okay. so if nobody care about my feelings, why should I care about theirs?
if I could skip all the bad days of my life. god please help! :(
oh crap, I'm still dizzy.
In the other side, I want to tell about my heart's feel. ha!
it was weird at first because I never feel like this before. I like someone. Idk why I can falling in love with him, we're different religion, and I know we can't be together. so how we would can be? friends, be in love, or nothing? we'll never be in-between.
for whatever reason, I can't stop think of you, even though I had all kinds of thoughts running through my head. everyday I thinking "don't you know how much I miss you Di? I just want to know how you are doing now." okay that's weird ._.
monday-friday. I love when you're hold my hand, hug me from behind, act stupid just to make me smile, stare at me face while I'm not looking, pinch my cheeks, hit me suddenly -_-
I like you as my friend. just it.
but I recognize, if you close with her I was jealous, that's all. thanks. bye.

studytour

18 - 21 april 2011 :)
thanks to XI IPA 1, I never forget this moment even just 4 days!
windy, ayu, putri. they are people who sleep with me everynight (?) haha
big thanks to yoga because you accompany me when at Borobudur and Dieng. for people who sitting in the rear of the bus, you're so crazy!
the first time we together all along time and we can be so close :3
these are some photos of studytour :

first place, Baturaden

Rosenda Hotel
at bus
malioboro
sendratari ramayana
UGM
Borobudur
Dieng
Studytour moment was so unforgettable. Miss you all. Thanks blue star, Veldiron tour, kak Ruben. Flo you let me lay my head on your shoulder and help me to sleep! Big thanks for you hehe :) ({})
I love you all :")